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happy spring!

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Yes, it’s been a long while since I last blogged! No apologies this time, I just have to accept the fact that I can’t keep up with blogging as frequently as I’d like to. Never mind, as long as I do pop in every now and then to leave a few words…I guess it’s better than nothing, right? Anyway, this post will be very brief. Just so you know I’m still around. Just been busy (or waiting endlessly for Spring rather!) as we all are these days. But that’s good I suppose, it keeps us occupied and focused. We all want to lead a happy fulfilled life at the end of the day. We all strive towards achieving this goal, we try our best anyway. Sometimes we make it, other times it’s a bit of a struggle. Such is the nature of this life! But we never give up, we keep on going till our last breath!

Well, Spring is finally here where I am. Hurray! What a joy to see the bright yellow daffodils and colourful crocuses everywhere. Along with the cherry and apple blossoms! It certainly lifts my spirits up many levels after a seemingly long miserable winter. Spring brings light and hope. Suddenly the days are longer and the skier is bluer. The birds are all chirping happily all day long. Squirrels come out of hibernation, there’s one that frequent my garden and he’s back scampering everywhere. We’ve started planting seeds for this year’s harvest and floral display, it’s just so lovely to be able to enjoy our garden once again. All in all, let’s just say I’m truly ecstatic at the moment. I look forward to the warmer months to come. So much to do, so much to look forward to, all being well, InshaAllah (God Willing)! In the meantime, I’m sending my happy vibes and love to all, till we meet again soon, take good care!

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cheery daffodils

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colourful crocuses

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cherry blossoms!

Let’s choose a beautiful warm uplifting song this time yeah? 80s simply the best! Till next time, enjoy!!!

winter blessings

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Whoa! A few weeks have gone by! Apologies for the rather long silence. I was hoping to blog fortnightly at least, since once a week seems almost impossible somehow. But looks like I can’t even manage that! I don’t know what it is, but the weather certainly doesn’t help at all. Winter seems endless this time around, I truly miss the sensation of warm bright sunshine on my skin! I know I’m guilty of complaining it’s too hot each time I return to my homeland Malaysia these days. But in reality I don’t really like the cold, my family and I have been down with one bug after another since December. What can I do to hurry Spring along a bit? Winter also makes me a tad miserable than usual, being in darkness most of the time doesn’t help. Can’t wait for the longer days to come again, I miss going out and about in broad daylight. I miss being out in my little garden (there’s not much life out there at the moment)!

Enough whinging, I guess I just have to be patient a little longer. Spring will dawn upon us before I know it, Inshallah. In the meantime I just have to keep busy with running my household as usual! Amongst the highs there’s also the setbacks that we face time and again of course, such is life. But as long as you have your loved ones, there’s nothing you can’t handle really. For me it’s my beloved husband, my dearest mom, both my younger sisters, my newly acquired brother in law (he’s a real gem) and several trusted friends. No matter what, I know they will always be there for me. For that I’m ever so grateful, Alhamdulillah! That’s all one needs at my age really. To know that there’s always a circle of people I can turn to. And my 4 children of course! They often give me headaches (all mothers can relate to this) with their antics but they are also without a doubt my very source of happiness.

I don’t like being miserable, no one does really. I want to count my blessings, not dwell on my misfortunes. I want to cherish those who are there for my little family and I, life is just too short. Sometimes you don’t realise who’s truly there for you until something eventful occurs. That’s when relationships are tested. That’s when people’s true colours emerge. Winter is certainly a time of reflection for me, I could go on and on! But enough rambling for now, I want to focus on being happy. You could say that’s my hope for this New Year. Life’s too short to be anything but happy! So good vibes from now on, I shall keep smiling and relate to those who bring out the best in me. I should take a leaf out of my friend’s book really. An old friend from my boarding school was in England for a visit, felt honoured when she took the trouble to see me! She’s just as sweet and bubbly as she used to be, laughing away at the end of each sentence she utters. I wish I was more like her!

I was struggling a little to find an appropriate title for this post, but finally settled on ‘Winter Blessings’. My old school friend who is terminally ill is in great pain at the moment, but she is still smiling and grateful for each and every day she has left. I should take heed; focus on my blessings and my loved ones, and be grateful for the chance and time to love and be loved. Despite all the suffering, injustice and evil around us, love still makes the world go round. I’m a great believer of true love, why, I travelled thousands of miles looking for it! I don’t settle for anything less. Celebrate love, no matter how small the gesture. Trust me, the outcome is always GREAT.

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Do small things with GREAT LOVE…

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As newlyweds, England 1997

This beautiful song came out in 1996, the year I met my beloved husband in England. I shall never forget how it made me feel. Euphoria! I had the soundtrack from the movie “One Fine Day” blaring away in our racing green car the day after our wedding. This song in particular I played over and over again. I dedicate this to you my dearest sweetheart! Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you I had no control over. It was a huge blessing…❤

 

forever young

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Greetings all! I know, it’s been well over a week since I last blogged. So much for hoping to blog weekly! Each night I try to get on the computer after my children have gone to bed, but I’ll be too shattered to put my thoughts down. My hubby said it doesn’t matter if I blogged every fortnight instead, no point sticking to my once a week writing if it’s not of good quality. I suppose he has a point. Anyway, here I am tonight, missing my blog and ready to share some thoughts with you!

Now that we’re officially middle-aged (my hubby disagrees, he who still has thick curly hair and taut tummy compared to other men his age!), I cannot help but hear of illnesses and deaths all around me. I mean, we do hear about it all the time, but somehow it stays with me a bit longer than usual now that I’m older. I remember losing a very dear cousin of mine when I was about 20. He was barely 17. My first real loss, I was devastated, but I quickly bounced back. I was very sad but I didn’t go around thinking that it could also happen to me. Like being ill or being involved in a tragic accident, it’s unfortunate that it had happened to others but surely it wouldn’t touch me? I then heard of several University mates passing away in my mid 20s, again same line of thoughts occurred. Afterwards a few relatives died suddenly in their late 50s, I remember how I wasn’t too bothered at all. Until my own dad passed away in my early 30s, then it hit me real hard!

I went around like a zombie afterwards, I kept thinking about death. Life seemed really bleak from then on. I wanted to wear all black permanently, I felt no joy whatsoever. My husband was really patient with me, always there to pick me up. I then found happiness once more when my daughter was born the following year. Children keep you busy 24/7, they are the essence of life. You cannot be half dead whilst raising children, you have to be fully awake. You need to be alive in every sense of the word! So my life resumed its normalcy. All 3 of my remaining grandparents also passed away the same year, but I could handle it. I was busy with my family life and more accepting of death. I then lost my dear Uncle a few years ago (so sad, he reminded me of my father a lot), I was able to deal with my emotion through one of my posts, Goodbye Uncle. Until now of course, fast forward 15 years, we arrive to where I am today.

Now it’s like an everyday occurrence almost; I hear so and so being ill, I hear so and so dying. And I start questioning my own mortality, I know I’m being morbid but I just can’t help it. Today I went to the doctor’s for my health check-up, all seemed fine (Alhamdulillah) apart from the usual hormonal change that women my age go through. Even that made me a little upset, I feel as if I’m not able to cope. My hubby said I’m strong and I’ve been through a lot, he’s certain I can jump pass this next hurdle in my life. InshaAllah, I can. But it just breaks my heart to pieces to hear one of my friends from boarding school being terminally ill, yes, at my age. So very young still, as many would consider. Another school friend passed away a couple of years ago, also from cancer. I can’t brush it away anymore like I did 2 decades ago, certainly not. I have to take heed, it’s a reminder. Illnesses and deaths remind us of our temporary existence in this world. One day we too shall perish, sooner or later we don’t quite know.

What do we do in the meantime? We carry on living until our last breath. We do our best in carrying out the roles in life we’ve been carved out to play. We continue to strive for success and happiness. We try to help those around us, we try to be good people. We don’t falter or lose hope. And that’s how I’m going to get through the rest of my life. I shall stay positive, my family needs me. I may be middle-aged, but that’s just a number. I need to stay young at heart, so that I can carry on. There will be thorns here and there, that’s for certain. But I can ride through it, I shall try my best. I shall make the most of my life, no one else is going to do it for me…

With that I end my post. I’m reminded of another favourite of ours at boarding school back in the 80s. Forever young, I want to be FOREVER YOUNG! Do you really want to live FOREVER? The wordings moved me even back then, now it seem very apt. The world we live in today, so much more advanced but still full of pain and suffering. But as Anne Frank (diarist and fugitive of the Third Reich) once said, “Think of all the beauty still left around you and be HAPPY.” Go listen and ponder, a very beautiful song indeed…

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England 1996, my first month away from my homeland Malaysia

joy of spring

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To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people just exist. Oscar Wilde

Live a good life. And in the end it’s not the years in a life, it’s the life in the years. Abraham Lincoln

Each day is a new life. Seize it. Live it. David Guy Powers

Greetings everyone! Apologies for the long silence. I’ve been rather busy of late, so many things happening all at once. But it’s been good, Alhamdulillah. When my beloved father passed away 13 years ago, I remember feeling so low to the point that I no longer felt joy in living. It was as if a part of me had been taken away. It took me a long while to recover. I look back on those gloomy years I went through and I’m glad I’ve come out of it. I still remember my father now and then but I snap out of my sadness quickly knowing that I have so much to be happy and grateful for. I also know my father would want me to continue living to the fullest, embracing each and every experience I encounter just like he had done. He would have said, “My dear, go and be happy.” That’s exactly what I’m doing now. As I go about my daily life of being a home educator, a mother and a wife, I get the chance to live life fully again. It’s a wonderful feeling which I hope will stay with me for many years to come, God Willing. Anyway, enough of my chattering, let me share a few pictures I’ve taken recently. They say a picture tells a thousand words, saves me from typing it all! The joy of Spring has certainly caught up with us, we are savouring every moment of this beautiful season. Stay tuned for more Spring updates, au revoir for now!

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my colourful Spring primroses

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lambing season had begun; we witnessed a lamb being born at the farm today!

my middle daughter can ride rather well now

my middle daughter can ride rather well now

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my youngest enjoying Spring with her new found friend

trees blossoming, a sure sign of Spring!

robin redbreast, a regular visitor in our garden now!

robin redbreast, a regular visitor in our Spring garden!

march awakening

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The last fling of winter is over … The earth, the soil itself, has a dreaming quality about it. It is warm now to the touch; it has come alive; it hides secrets that in a moment, in a little while, it will tell. Donald Culross Peattie

The air is like a butterfly
With frail blue wings.
The happy earth looks at the sky
And sings.
Joyce Kilmer

It was one of those March days when the sun shines hot and the wind blows cold: when it is summer in the light, and winter in the shade.
Charles Dickens

March is a tomboy with tousled hair, a mischievous smile, mud on her shoes and a laugh in her voice.
Hal Borland

my youngest two, in March awakening!

Educate your children to be happy and content with life’s simple pleasures: my youngest two, in March awakening!

Need I say more? My heart is singing and full of longing in our March awakening…Alhamdulillah, rejoice!  ❤